Post by chamrosh on Sept 12, 2019 17:55:45 GMT -8
I am disappointed to see that there's a whole section for introductions and no-one's used it!
Y'all need to learn to be more social.
I guess, most of y'all know who I am, but some don't. But I've been kinda vanished for a few months' now and I figure a catch-up for y'all is in order even if not a full intro, and this is less obtrusive than doing it on discord or anything like that, and I can just link here for everyone.
I'm probably going to change the display name at some point, but I want the tag to stay the same as it would be on CS.
Behold me being as unprofessional as you're likely to be on here because I should be sleeping, and instead I'm doing this. Apparently initially my level of intimidation on CS was scary and I guarantee this is going to seem jarring, going back through my posts in the future, but honestly? My alignment can best be described as chaotic lawful and this is fine by me.
Biggest thing first, ig? Let's goooooo.
My depression just sort of? Went overnight a couple months' ago? I'm still in really really bad mental habits but less bad? I don't really know how to explain properly. But basically, the difference between seriously meaning it whenever I make self-deprecating jokes compared to only meaning it half the time. Subtle but significant. Feels much better.
But... kind-of bigger, idk, linked. Linked, at least, my bros. Literally the night after the depression went - and I do literally mean it went overnight - so did all my dysphoria and so on? Like. Literally overnight, the same way. I? Have no idea what's going on with that, but, again, feels better. Still GNC my dudes, but I've started growing out my hair again.... and that's about the only change to my gender expression ;P I still hate my first name.
Makes me really glad I paid attention to peeps saying not to do anything permanent until you've done everything possible to mitigate any mental health issues (not that I would have been able to do what's normally meant by that, bc, for everyone who doesn't know already, I have CPD and basically every antidepressant is either a bloodthinner or insanely dangerous if you OD with CPD, and, uh. I mean I can't blame them for saying both were too risky).
In light of this though! I definitely think it's worth restating in case anyone gets the wrong impression at all! My experience is an outlier. My experience does not in any way make anybody's experience invalid - including my own. I know what I felt like, and I knew it was at least real to me as I felt it, and that means it's valid. I also can reasonably guess how dysphoria/euphoria feel for other people and I can gosh darn confirm, it's definitely real, and the trans community is definitely very important to me and I will continue to do everything I reasonably can to support y'all wonderful beans, bc you deserve it!
Idk if anyone knew about my brothers but this feels relevant so anyway, the older one has quit his job - which had an utterly ridiculously high starting salary and he got like 5 fully funded business trips to foreign countries every year - in favour of being broke again, as a student. He's now (...probably in 3 weeks' but that's the same thing with us students) studying for his pHD at the University of Cambridge - yes, that Cambridge - in the geology in exo-micro-planets. I'm sure this will be highly useful knowledge for us before we've even launched a manned mission to Mars (seriously it's pretty neat). My uni here is getting rid of some of their books entirely and I managed to pilfer some, including "Astronomie", as a joke to give to him at Christmas. It's entirely in German. Which he doesn't speak.
The other one has quit his job as a maths teacher to do... goodness knows what. Best we can figure he's either wanting to be a professional origamist or a professional board game designer. Not sure how he thinks either of these will be stable and I'm on the side of gently nudging him to at least take a decent part-time job...
I'm on my year abroad at uni now, in Denmark! Any excuses to practice/learn more Danish, I am definitely taking them. Same goes for other languages common among my housemates and classmates! In that interest (in rough order of frequency):
In my house, we have people who speak: US English, Hungarian, Danish, Greek, Mandarin, Portuguese, Arabic
In my class, we have people who speak: US English, UK English (like... not just me), Danish, Mandarin, Italian, Spanish, French, German. We also have bilingual people who also speak Russian and Arabic but that's... kinda lower priority.
Don't expect much from me, but I'll appreciate any excuses to practice/learn literally any of these. I am not expecting to reach a good standard in any but... I'd like to manage something, y'know? And because I know full well people are going to ask for Demos of Danish (and no one will speak Danish otherwise), here's some Danish (And if anyone actually wants to hear how this is said, PM me, I can work out something): Hej! Jeg hedder Chamrosh, og jeg bor i Zealand, i Danmark, men jeg er englander. Jeg kan kun tale lidt dansk, men, jeg kan tale dansk - og ikke Google Translate heer, tak. Måske, du kan også det læse - og forstå -, men, selvføgelig, du kan ikke det tale. Stavermåderne er moget, moget, moget, DUM!
I have found a grand total of 3 Danes who don't speak English. 2 of them were originally from China. The other I didn't need to understand much because the language of appreciating people's dogs existing is universal. That said, literally none of the signs are in English so you do still definitely need to understand Danish.
Literally everyone cycles here, and I have a rented bike for a year and honestly? I think this is the year I develop lungs to rival a seal. Especially when you leave late and have to sprint-cycle up 3km worth of hill. Admittedly it's Danish hill, so it's.... maybe 2% incline, but still. That's a big hill here.
It's also already Theseus' bike. I've had it 1.5 months and I've already had to replace/fix: the front light, the back tire, the pedals, the bell, and the basket. What's the bet the whole thing will be replaced by next August?
Finally... my internet is still pretty shoddy! At least it comes back, unlike how my internet was when I first started being less frequently around. And I know how to get it back. I can, in theory, switch over to my own router now, but I spent literally 16 hours' over the last week trying it and I have no clue how and frankly I don't want to invest that much time every week.
I think that's my update covered in what I think is relevant/interesting. Yeah. We take questions in this house.
Y'all need to learn to be more social.
I guess, most of y'all know who I am, but some don't. But I've been kinda vanished for a few months' now and I figure a catch-up for y'all is in order even if not a full intro, and this is less obtrusive than doing it on discord or anything like that, and I can just link here for everyone.
I'm probably going to change the display name at some point, but I want the tag to stay the same as it would be on CS.
Behold me being as unprofessional as you're likely to be on here because I should be sleeping, and instead I'm doing this. Apparently initially my level of intimidation on CS was scary and I guarantee this is going to seem jarring, going back through my posts in the future, but honestly? My alignment can best be described as chaotic lawful and this is fine by me.
Biggest thing first, ig? Let's goooooo.
My depression just sort of? Went overnight a couple months' ago? I'm still in really really bad mental habits but less bad? I don't really know how to explain properly. But basically, the difference between seriously meaning it whenever I make self-deprecating jokes compared to only meaning it half the time. Subtle but significant. Feels much better.
But... kind-of bigger, idk, linked. Linked, at least, my bros. Literally the night after the depression went - and I do literally mean it went overnight - so did all my dysphoria and so on? Like. Literally overnight, the same way. I? Have no idea what's going on with that, but, again, feels better. Still GNC my dudes, but I've started growing out my hair again.... and that's about the only change to my gender expression ;P I still hate my first name.
Makes me really glad I paid attention to peeps saying not to do anything permanent until you've done everything possible to mitigate any mental health issues (not that I would have been able to do what's normally meant by that, bc, for everyone who doesn't know already, I have CPD and basically every antidepressant is either a bloodthinner or insanely dangerous if you OD with CPD, and, uh. I mean I can't blame them for saying both were too risky).
In light of this though! I definitely think it's worth restating in case anyone gets the wrong impression at all! My experience is an outlier. My experience does not in any way make anybody's experience invalid - including my own. I know what I felt like, and I knew it was at least real to me as I felt it, and that means it's valid. I also can reasonably guess how dysphoria/euphoria feel for other people and I can gosh darn confirm, it's definitely real, and the trans community is definitely very important to me and I will continue to do everything I reasonably can to support y'all wonderful beans, bc you deserve it!
Idk if anyone knew about my brothers but this feels relevant so anyway, the older one has quit his job - which had an utterly ridiculously high starting salary and he got like 5 fully funded business trips to foreign countries every year - in favour of being broke again, as a student. He's now (...probably in 3 weeks' but that's the same thing with us students) studying for his pHD at the University of Cambridge - yes, that Cambridge - in the geology in exo-micro-planets. I'm sure this will be highly useful knowledge for us before we've even launched a manned mission to Mars (seriously it's pretty neat). My uni here is getting rid of some of their books entirely and I managed to pilfer some, including "Astronomie", as a joke to give to him at Christmas. It's entirely in German. Which he doesn't speak.
The other one has quit his job as a maths teacher to do... goodness knows what. Best we can figure he's either wanting to be a professional origamist or a professional board game designer. Not sure how he thinks either of these will be stable and I'm on the side of gently nudging him to at least take a decent part-time job...
I'm on my year abroad at uni now, in Denmark! Any excuses to practice/learn more Danish, I am definitely taking them. Same goes for other languages common among my housemates and classmates! In that interest (in rough order of frequency):
In my house, we have people who speak: US English, Hungarian, Danish, Greek, Mandarin, Portuguese, Arabic
In my class, we have people who speak: US English, UK English (like... not just me), Danish, Mandarin, Italian, Spanish, French, German. We also have bilingual people who also speak Russian and Arabic but that's... kinda lower priority.
Don't expect much from me, but I'll appreciate any excuses to practice/learn literally any of these. I am not expecting to reach a good standard in any but... I'd like to manage something, y'know? And because I know full well people are going to ask for Demos of Danish (and no one will speak Danish otherwise), here's some Danish (And if anyone actually wants to hear how this is said, PM me, I can work out something): Hej! Jeg hedder Chamrosh, og jeg bor i Zealand, i Danmark, men jeg er englander. Jeg kan kun tale lidt dansk, men, jeg kan tale dansk - og ikke Google Translate heer, tak. Måske, du kan også det læse - og forstå -, men, selvføgelig, du kan ikke det tale. Stavermåderne er moget, moget, moget, DUM!
I have found a grand total of 3 Danes who don't speak English. 2 of them were originally from China. The other I didn't need to understand much because the language of appreciating people's dogs existing is universal. That said, literally none of the signs are in English so you do still definitely need to understand Danish.
Literally everyone cycles here, and I have a rented bike for a year and honestly? I think this is the year I develop lungs to rival a seal. Especially when you leave late and have to sprint-cycle up 3km worth of hill. Admittedly it's Danish hill, so it's.... maybe 2% incline, but still. That's a big hill here.
It's also already Theseus' bike. I've had it 1.5 months and I've already had to replace/fix: the front light, the back tire, the pedals, the bell, and the basket. What's the bet the whole thing will be replaced by next August?
Finally... my internet is still pretty shoddy! At least it comes back, unlike how my internet was when I first started being less frequently around. And I know how to get it back. I can, in theory, switch over to my own router now, but I spent literally 16 hours' over the last week trying it and I have no clue how and frankly I don't want to invest that much time every week.
I think that's my update covered in what I think is relevant/interesting. Yeah. We take questions in this house.